I am not late for this New Year’s Resolution thing, as you may think. I will have you know that I took a lot of time figuring this out and choosing one that I would not fail at. Well, that’s not really true either. To tell you the truth, my mind goes completely blank when I try to think of something I can work on for the year. In all honesty, there is no way I can choose just one. I have a thousand things that I should improve but when I think about them I realize I’m not kidding anyone. There is no way I would be able to focus on one thing for an entire year. That’s just not how I work. I get very bored easily and tend to have new revelations every other week. So instead of a New Year’s Resolution.. I give you a New Years Revelation!!
Last year was devoted solely to kindness, it was the ever so popular “kindness challenge”. I had planned on blogging about that, but realized everyone on the internet was doing this. My, oh so original plan, was anything but!! Either way, I knew that being kind was the one trendy thing worth doing. I have nothing life changing or miraculous to report but I am very proud of all the genuinely kind things I had done. I really wanted to focus on more spiritual kindness and stay away from monetary kindness, which in my opinion, is great but not lasting and in some respects too easy. The giving of things to help people financially included: weekly and monthly donations to various charities, gift bags for homeless people that we may see as we drive or work around our community, cards to those who are sick or struggling, and donations of clothing and toys to those in need. The more spiritual kindness included: consciously complimenting people daily, thanking people for everything from big to small things, calling people in my family who were elderly and alone, volunteering to help at the local homeless shelter, and volunteering to help pack food at Feed My Starving Children. These things were wonderful and such a great beginning to what I’m hoping will be my life’s purpose.
This brings me to this year’s revelation. I want to focus on love this year. I have heard it said before that in order to love other’s you must love yourself. I can’t comprehend this statement because I have a very hard time “loving” myself. I spent all of 2015 trying to be kind essentially hoping it would teach me how to love and, yes, it helped me love strangers and those in need. However, I did not see any great change in loving myself and for that matter, family, friends, and acquaintances. I am very aware that God loves me with all his heart. I am just really confused about how not loving myself fully, actually makes me imperfect at loving others. So I really want to focus on loving this year, and I hope by the end of this year the answer to that question will be revealed.
Please join me on this “love journey”! Every week I plan to challenge myself with something that will open my heart to what love truly is. Please comment and let me know how you’re journey is going. I’d like to start a forum where we can all post our struggles and accomplishments on the way. I can’t wait to begin and I can’t wait to see who I’ll find along the way!
Love you all with my big- kind- heart